So so so sad

Ok, this post will be a bit sad. My dad just got diagnosed and it's confirmed that his kidney is 100% useless. God, I can't imagine my life without him. How's my family gonna survive? I wanted to donate my kidney but my mom won't let me. She said my SPM is next year and she's worried that by donating my kidney, I'm gonna damage my studies and the fact that if I donate, I'll be the one organ girl, since I lost one ovary when I got operated for my ovarian cyst. I need help people. Can you please help me decide whether i should or I shouldn't donate my kidney. I don't mind being the one organ girl and I'll try to study more from home to study for my SPM... But please, I wanna be useful for once. I wanna make a difference in my family. But I need to start from now. It's now or never.... God, it feels so hard... Jay, I need you right now.... I need you're opinion most... you're the person that I care about most and the person that I love most. Please help me convince my parents...

LUCKY!!!

I think this is my most lucky month of the year!! I received a letter from GALAXIE saying that i received a voucher from parkson. Last week, I received a letter from FLY FM with my RM 200.00 check in it. I can't wait to go to sunway on the 25th. even though we couldn't watch new moon, we're kinda hoping to watch JENNIFER'S BODY. but my buddy, FAIQ said that the movie was like any typical horror movie. Sexy girl, girl gets possesed, girl kills people, girls get killed, the end. so now i saw that the disney chrismast carol was also quite nice. so now we can't actually tell what we're watching that day...

PARTAY!!!!

The exams are finally OVER!!!! I know my post is actually late. i just dun have the mood to update... well, me, thasha, anis and faiq are planning to go to sunway on the 25th november. but after reading galaxie, i found out that new moon is not on the 20th but on the 26th. so, at first i wanted to change the date to 2nd december. but sfter discussing, we made up our mind to go on the 25th but NOT watch new moon. we're gonna watch jennifer's body!!! megan fox smokin' hot!!!! can't wait!!!!

EXAMS!!! IL MIO DIO!!!

Help!!!! Exams is coming again!! After only, like, 2 weeks!! This year MAJORLY sucks because the exams are like so fucking lot! the march n mid year was okay. but after the august test, we had the latih tubi for a week and after 3 weeks, there's the finals! I don't wanna think about next year!! Damn fucking sure next year will have MUCH MUCH MORE exams!! Il mio dio!! I think i need medical help here! okay, back to me. Things with him is getting more and more complicated. Since it's the exams, I can't use the internet much - BTW, I'm sneaking around here - I can't come online much. since the timeline is different and me not having the phone on me much ALSO makes it harder for us to communicate... I chatted with him last night though. I seriously believe that my account is being hacked. Even if I deleted one of the many emails he have, someone would mysteriously add him back. And since the email i keep on deleting is his brother's, obviously his brother is getting MAJORLY pissed at me because i keep on adding him again. I wanted to just let it be, but unfortunately he said 'BLOCK DEN DELETE' -his actual quote and format n caps. But for now, I'm just letting it be. If someone 'mysteriously' adds him again, I AM SO NOT TAKING THE BLAME ON IT! Well, gotta go study since my sister is pestering for the damn fucking laptop which is not hers nor mine. Tata!! Till I regain time, mood and place for another update!

BORED!!!!!!!!

I am so damn fucking BORED!!! there's nothing to do... instead of going back home, i have to follow my mom to the cafe and do absolutely NOTHING!!!! read my lips N.O.T.H.I.N.G!!! My dad should've sent us home instead of here. at least we'll have something to do. oh yeah, i've been chatting with some guy at MSN. he's a guy named Nas Ahmed and he's from London. Lucky huh?? But I've been having fun chatting with him. i've been chatting from 10am here till 6pm because I have to help with the food for breaking the fast. then, we continued the chat again from 9pm till 6am. I've been doingthis during the whole holiday. And i just found out that he's a damn fucking MILLIONAIRE!!! well, technically he's dad is the millionaire, but he said he and his brother are starting with the family business. he's a first year at college and studying law and politics. he's a really sweet guy. And, he's a muslim. make's it sweeter doesn't it. BTW, DAMN YOU DAMIEN FOR NOT COMING TO SCHOOL THE PAST TWO DAYS!!! OUR CLASS LOST A VERY LOUD NOISE MAKER AND CLASS WAS REALLY BORING WITHOUT YOU!! COME BACK TOMORROW!!!

School Holidays!!

The school holiday is so damn boring. there's nothing to do but read and sleep - in that order. But i have been finding new friends all over the world. there's this one guy called Nas from London. I chatted with him from 7.35 - time after i break my fast - until midnight. Even after 4 hours, we still actually wanted to continue chatting. but i figured if i continued, i won't wake up the next morning. so i still am chatting with him. He's a cool guy. there's this one guy, his name is Ali. he's from Morocco. So naturally, he can speak in French, but his english is OMG!!! very bad!! But he's a cool guy. i still chat with him just thatit's very hard to understand... oh well... i'm now actually at IB... very bored and nothing to do...

my sweet 16!!!

my sweet 16 was today!!! it was kinda okay. i can't say awesome because of some recent activities that happen during my party earlier on. the pics, i'll post it after i transfer it to my pendrive. harm and jenny were the first to arrive. truth be told, when they came, i wasn't even fully prepared yet. i only had half of my makeup on. my eyeshadow was funny and i haven't even put on my eyeliner, mascara and lipstick. i quickly put it on when they were eating. after that, i came out as a goth.i had the heavy eye makeup, really dark lipstick thing going on. i didn't look half bad either. while i was talking with jen and harm, damien came!!! the first of the only two males. - i actually invited a lot of people, but i think more than 3 quarter didn't come - the party was already starting. so when anis, nawwal and zahrul came, the part was on full swing. but what really grabbed my attention was jane. she looked utterly gorgeous. she cut her hair in a pixie kinda cut. but her hair really made her look older. with the short dress she was wearing, jane was the main attraction of the day. when anis came, she wanted to do the decorations that i completely ignored. i said there was no fucking reason for me to mess my house. but she said she cared. so i just gave her the fuckin' papers and she did what ever she wanted to. but when she was hanging all the papers on the wall, she stood on this one chair which is meant for kids from the age of 2-7. not 16. so, obviously the chair broke. when i told her no need to continue because i don't fucking care about the house and it'll just take me time to clean it later on. she scolded me! she said i didn't care about her and all i care about is the house. well, i was thinking if she continued to do all those deco, she'll just fall gain. then only she stopped. it kinda stopped the party for a while. but harm and indie started to pose seductively. we all made them do weird poses and took the pictures. then mellie came in and harm left the picture. with mellie, mellie was the maid and indie is the master. that picture was damn nice. we continued to play twister and mellie and indie got kinda tied up. but when jenny came in the picture, jenny got even worse. her hands and legs were all over the place. the party was blast. thanks all for coming!!