University Search!!!! Aaarrrgghh!!!

Ok... I hve obviously lost my head now. It is confirmed that I am going crazy looking for international universities. Not to mention my mom killing me for applying for VERY VERY VERY expensive universities. So far, I've applied for Wakaito University in New Zealand, University of Canberra in Australia. I'm postponing my application through UCAS because i need to pay 25 pounds for it. 25 POUNDS!!! As in RM 140.00 here in Malaysia. *gasps* I will officially go broke after all this university application. AND I haven't even finished my SPM yet. I can't send a single document... I often think that I'm applying it as if I already finished SPM AND my A Levels. I'm not so sure how to tell my mom I wanna take A Levels. I can already hear her very loud NO in my ears. A Levels cost so much!!! But if I wanna study overseas, I need to study A Levels... *sighs* What should I do now?

Headache....

God... I'm having a BAD headache right now... I have no idea why, but I'm having this craving to eat japaness food... I need 2 more wish stamp to get a starbucks organizer... My trip to midvalley wit my parents SUCKED!!! I'm used to going around alone. So they can't expect me to just follow them around. I just went to Elianto -where I bought this SUPER SUPER CHEAP black nail polish for only RM 1.00- and Sinma since my sis wanted to buy a hair clip. After that, I called my mom to ask where she is. AND instead of telling me where they are, I got scolded. To make matter worst, she didn't tell me where she was so me and my sis took the safe way and waited at the car. So we where waiting for like 10 minutes, and then my dad calls asking where we were. After I told him, he said he was at the school section. So me and my sis went all the way up back and found them there. BUT, the rest of the day was already screwed. My mom decided it was a FABULOUS time to make a pissed off face. So I made the face too. So what if they don't talk to me? Not like it's the end of the world...

Holidays!!!!!

Can someone please tell me why school holidays sucks??? There's absolutely NOTHING to do!!! I'm doing the same fucking things every single fucking day. Now, since I'm one step closer to SPM, I have to study. But I read - tried to actually - my physics reference book and I end up sleeping in 10 minutes... Books are just sooooo boring ain't it? Study books not story books. I can not sleep for two single days if I'm holding an interesting book. Such as black dagger brotherhood series or dark-hunter or even the breed series or even the midnight breed series or love at stake series or twilight series or even night world series and the night huntress series oh wait, there's also the dark ones series... Wow... I just named my favourite series...

DIE DIE DIE!!!

Well, I've already gone to Sunway with my friends. It was a BLAST!!! Sad we didn't get to go to the kareoke place. My mom called wayyyy to early. So now I am to start studying!!! Study Study Study!!!! Bought A LOT OF NEW BOOKS the other day though...

HOLIDAYS!!!!!

Well, school holidays have officially begun on the 20th of November - The day New Moon came out at US. But I have unofficially begin my hols on the 13th of November. Too lazy to come... Well, tomorrow, me, Thasha, Faiq n Anis are going to sunway for some fun times before suffering for SPM. We're watching A Christmas Carol 3D. What sucked was that New Moon was priemering at MY on the 26th. A day after. Bummer. So after some thinking, we made up our mind to watch the 3D movie. After dat, we're going to Tony Roma's for some lunch. Yum!!! I can taste the steak already!!! Then, we're going for some shopping before heading out to 'sing our hearts out' at our kareoke seassion. Today, my aunts sister-in-law dropped by our house. She's actually a malaysian but she got married to an Australian doctor. So she's living her life there and trust me on this, she's FUCKING rich. Her family owns a ranch which is some where around 250 000 acres or so. I can't actually remember the exact figure bt my aunt told my gran that if they we're on a car, the wouldn't finish going through the whole ranch in two days. SOOOO, my gran was trying to tell me how she has this hot son which is somewhere between late twenties or early thirties. Get this, she was trying to tell me to FLIRT with him. Like I will. Hello??? Super hot boyfriend?? Mega rich family??? I have that already. So when they came by today, I was kinda expecting the super hot guy my gran was saying. So when I got that glimpse of him, I was like, 'That's the super hot guy ma was talking about?? Jay's like a thousand times better.' But he's quite cool. But I have to say he looks kinda gay to me. But that may be because he's having a flu. But who know's rite??? Well, that's al.... WAIT!!! I forgot to talk about Jay. Apparently, he is in depression. After thousands of messages and missed calls, he finally answers the phone to tell me what was wrong. Unfortunately, the week before, he was rushing to god knows where when an old lady asked for his help to cross the road. But since he was rushing, he told the lady 'Sorry. I'd love to help but I'm rushing right now.' With that, he ran across the road. By the time he reached the other side of the road, he heard a car crash and turned around. The old lady was lying on the ground with blood leeking out of her body. Someone quickly called the ambulance but by the time they came, it was already too late. So now Jay is blaming himself for the whole thing. It's NOT his fault. It's some guy who ran the red light's fault. But he still blames himself

So so so sad

Ok, this post will be a bit sad. My dad just got diagnosed and it's confirmed that his kidney is 100% useless. God, I can't imagine my life without him. How's my family gonna survive? I wanted to donate my kidney but my mom won't let me. She said my SPM is next year and she's worried that by donating my kidney, I'm gonna damage my studies and the fact that if I donate, I'll be the one organ girl, since I lost one ovary when I got operated for my ovarian cyst. I need help people. Can you please help me decide whether i should or I shouldn't donate my kidney. I don't mind being the one organ girl and I'll try to study more from home to study for my SPM... But please, I wanna be useful for once. I wanna make a difference in my family. But I need to start from now. It's now or never.... God, it feels so hard... Jay, I need you right now.... I need you're opinion most... you're the person that I care about most and the person that I love most. Please help me convince my parents...

LUCKY!!!

I think this is my most lucky month of the year!! I received a letter from GALAXIE saying that i received a voucher from parkson. Last week, I received a letter from FLY FM with my RM 200.00 check in it. I can't wait to go to sunway on the 25th. even though we couldn't watch new moon, we're kinda hoping to watch JENNIFER'S BODY. but my buddy, FAIQ said that the movie was like any typical horror movie. Sexy girl, girl gets possesed, girl kills people, girls get killed, the end. so now i saw that the disney chrismast carol was also quite nice. so now we can't actually tell what we're watching that day...