azi's dirty little secret

University Search!!!! Aaarrrgghh!!!

2010-01-29T19:13:00.000-08:00

Ok... I hve obviously lost my head now. It is confirmed that I am going crazy looking for international universities. Not to mention my mom killing me for applying for VERY VERY VERY expensive universities. So far, I've applied for Wakaito University in New Zealand, University of Canberra in Australia. I'm postponing my application through UCAS because i need to pay 25 pounds for it. 25 POUNDS!!! As in RM 140.00 here in Malaysia. *gasps* I will officially go broke after all this university application. AND I haven't even finished my SPM yet. I can't send a single document... I often think that I'm applying it as if I already finished SPM AND my A Levels. I'm not so sure how to tell my mom I wanna take A Levels. I can already hear her very loud NO in my ears. A Levels cost so much!!! But if I wanna study overseas, I need to study A Levels... *sighs* What should I do now?

Headache....

2009-12-19T03:06:00.000-08:00

God... I'm having a BAD headache right now... I have no idea why, but I'm having this craving to eat japaness food... I need 2 more wish stamp to get a starbucks organizer... My trip to midvalley wit my parents SUCKED!!! I'm used to going around alone. So they can't expect me to just follow them around. I just went to Elianto -where I bought this SUPER SUPER CHEAP black nail polish for only RM 1.00- and Sinma since my sis wanted to buy a hair clip. After that, I called my mom to ask where she is. AND instead of telling me where they are, I got scolded. To make matter worst, she didn't tell me where she was so me and my sis took the safe way and waited at the car. So we where waiting for like 10 minutes, and then my dad calls asking where we were. After I told him, he said he was at the school section. So me and my sis went all the way up back and found them there. BUT, the rest of the day was already screwed. My mom decided it was a FABULOUS time to make a pissed off face. So I made the face too. So what if they don't talk to me? Not like it's the end of the world...

Holidays!!!!!

2009-12-11T00:09:00.000-08:00

Can someone please tell me why school holidays sucks??? There's absolutely NOTHING to do!!! I'm doing the same fucking things every single fucking day. Now, since I'm one step closer to SPM, I have to study. But I read - tried to actually - my physics reference book and I end up sleeping in 10 minutes... Books are just sooooo boring ain't it? Study books not story books. I can not sleep for two single days if I'm holding an interesting book. Such as black dagger brotherhood series or dark-hunter or even the breed series or even the midnight breed series or love at stake series or twilight series or even night world series and the night huntress series oh wait, there's also the dark ones series... Wow... I just named my favourite series...

DIE DIE DIE!!!

2009-11-27T04:22:00.000-08:00

Well, I've already gone to Sunway with my friends. It was a BLAST!!! Sad we didn't get to go to the kareoke place. My mom called wayyyy to early. So now I am to start studying!!! Study Study Study!!!! Bought A LOT OF NEW BOOKS the other day though...

HOLIDAYS!!!!!

2009-11-24T04:25:00.000-08:00

Well, school holidays have officially begun on the 20th of November - The day New Moon came out at US. But I have unofficially begin my hols on the 13th of November. Too lazy to come... Well, tomorrow, me, Thasha, Faiq n Anis are going to sunway for some fun times before suffering for SPM. We're watching A Christmas Carol 3D. What sucked was that New Moon was priemering at MY on the 26th. A day after. Bummer. So after some thinking, we made up our mind to watch the 3D movie. After dat, we're going to Tony Roma's for some lunch. Yum!!! I can taste the steak already!!! Then, we're going for some shopping before heading out to 'sing our hearts out' at our kareoke seassion. Today, my aunts sister-in-law dropped by our house. She's actually a malaysian but she got married to an Australian doctor. So she's living her life there and trust me on this, she's FUCKING rich. Her family owns a ranch which is some where around 250 000 acres or so. I can't actually remember the exact figure bt my aunt told my gran that if they we're on a car, the wouldn't finish going through the whole ranch in two days. SOOOO, my gran was trying to tell me how she has this hot son which is somewhere between late twenties or early thirties. Get this, she was trying to tell me to FLIRT with him. Like I will. Hello??? Super hot boyfriend?? Mega rich family??? I have that already. So when they came by today, I was kinda expecting the super hot guy my gran was saying. So when I got that glimpse of him, I was like, 'That's the super hot guy ma was talking about?? Jay's like a thousand times better.' But he's quite cool. But I have to say he looks kinda gay to me. But that may be because he's having a flu. But who know's rite??? Well, that's al.... WAIT!!! I forgot to talk about Jay. Apparently, he is in depression. After thousands of messages and missed calls, he finally answers the phone to tell me what was wrong. Unfortunately, the week before, he was rushing to god knows where when an old lady asked for his help to cross the road. But since he was rushing, he told the lady 'Sorry. I'd love to help but I'm rushing right now.' With that, he ran across the road. By the time he reached the other side of the road, he heard a car crash and turned around. The old lady was lying on the ground with blood leeking out of her body. Someone quickly called the ambulance but by the time they came, it was already too late. So now Jay is blaming himself for the whole thing. It's NOT his fault. It's some guy who ran the red light's fault. But he still blames himself

So so so sad

2009-11-06T05:08:00.000-08:00

Ok, this post will be a bit sad. My dad just got diagnosed and it's confirmed that his kidney is 100% useless. God, I can't imagine my life without him. How's my family gonna survive? I wanted to donate my kidney but my mom won't let me. She said my SPM is next year and she's worried that by donating my kidney, I'm gonna damage my studies and the fact that if I donate, I'll be the one organ girl, since I lost one ovary when I got operated for my ovarian cyst. I need help people. Can you please help me decide whether i should or I shouldn't donate my kidney. I don't mind being the one organ girl and I'll try to study more from home to study for my SPM... But please, I wanna be useful for once. I wanna make a difference in my family. But I need to start from now. It's now or never.... God, it feels so hard... Jay, I need you right now.... I need you're opinion most... you're the person that I care about most and the person that I love most. Please help me convince my parents...

LUCKY!!!

2009-11-02T04:19:00.000-08:00

I think this is my most lucky month of the year!! I received a letter from GALAXIE saying that i received a voucher from parkson. Last week, I received a letter from FLY FM with my RM 200.00 check in it. I can't wait to go to sunway on the 25th. even though we couldn't watch new moon, we're kinda hoping to watch JENNIFER'S BODY. but my buddy, FAIQ said that the movie was like any typical horror movie. Sexy girl, girl gets possesed, girl kills people, girls get killed, the end. so now i saw that the disney chrismast carol was also quite nice. so now we can't actually tell what we're watching that day...

PARTAY!!!!

2009-10-31T08:31:00.000-07:00

The exams are finally OVER!!!! I know my post is actually late. i just dun have the mood to update... well, me, thasha, anis and faiq are planning to go to sunway on the 25th november. but after reading galaxie, i found out that new moon is not on the 20th but on the 26th. so, at first i wanted to change the date to 2nd december. but sfter discussing, we made up our mind to go on the 25th but NOT watch new moon. we're gonna watch jennifer's body!!! megan fox smokin' hot!!!! can't wait!!!!

EXAMS!!! IL MIO DIO!!!

2009-10-06T02:33:00.000-07:00

Help!!!! Exams is coming again!! After only, like, 2 weeks!! This year MAJORLY sucks because the exams are like so fucking lot! the march n mid year was okay. but after the august test, we had the latih tubi for a week and after 3 weeks, there's the finals! I don't wanna think about next year!! Damn fucking sure next year will have MUCH MUCH MORE exams!! Il mio dio!! I think i need medical help here! okay, back to me. Things with him is getting more and more complicated. Since it's the exams, I can't use the internet much - BTW, I'm sneaking around here - I can't come online much. since the timeline is different and me not having the phone on me much ALSO makes it harder for us to communicate... I chatted with him last night though. I seriously believe that my account is being hacked. Even if I deleted one of the many emails he have, someone would mysteriously add him back. And since the email i keep on deleting is his brother's, obviously his brother is getting MAJORLY pissed at me because i keep on adding him again. I wanted to just let it be, but unfortunately he said 'BLOCK DEN DELETE' -his actual quote and format n caps. But for now, I'm just letting it be. If someone 'mysteriously' adds him again, I AM SO NOT TAKING THE BLAME ON IT! Well, gotta go study since my sister is pestering for the damn fucking laptop which is not hers nor mine. Tata!! Till I regain time, mood and place for another update!

BORED!!!!!!!!

2009-09-02T02:40:00.000-07:00

I am so damn fucking BORED!!! there's nothing to do... instead of going back home, i have to follow my mom to the cafe and do absolutely NOTHING!!!! read my lips N.O.T.H.I.N.G!!! My dad should've sent us home instead of here. at least we'll have something to do. oh yeah, i've been chatting with some guy at MSN. he's a guy named Nas Ahmed and he's from London. Lucky huh?? But I've been having fun chatting with him. i've been chatting from 10am here till 6pm because I have to help with the food for breaking the fast. then, we continued the chat again from 9pm till 6am. I've been doingthis during the whole holiday. And i just found out that he's a damn fucking MILLIONAIRE!!! well, technically he's dad is the millionaire, but he said he and his brother are starting with the family business. he's a first year at college and studying law and politics. he's a really sweet guy. And, he's a muslim. make's it sweeter doesn't it. BTW, DAMN YOU DAMIEN FOR NOT COMING TO SCHOOL THE PAST TWO DAYS!!! OUR CLASS LOST A VERY LOUD NOISE MAKER AND CLASS WAS REALLY BORING WITHOUT YOU!! COME BACK TOMORROW!!!

School Holidays!!

2009-08-28T19:55:00.000-07:00

The school holiday is so damn boring. there's nothing to do but read and sleep - in that order. But i have been finding new friends all over the world. there's this one guy called Nas from London. I chatted with him from 7.35 - time after i break my fast - until midnight. Even after 4 hours, we still actually wanted to continue chatting. but i figured if i continued, i won't wake up the next morning. so i still am chatting with him. He's a cool guy. there's this one guy, his name is Ali. he's from Morocco. So naturally, he can speak in French, but his english is OMG!!! very bad!! But he's a cool guy. i still chat with him just thatit's very hard to understand... oh well... i'm now actually at IB... very bored and nothing to do...

my sweet 16!!!

2009-08-08T06:02:00.000-07:00

my sweet 16 was today!!! it was kinda okay. i can't say awesome because of some recent activities that happen during my party earlier on. the pics, i'll post it after i transfer it to my pendrive. harm and jenny were the first to arrive. truth be told, when they came, i wasn't even fully prepared yet. i only had half of my makeup on. my eyeshadow was funny and i haven't even put on my eyeliner, mascara and lipstick. i quickly put it on when they were eating. after that, i came out as a goth.i had the heavy eye makeup, really dark lipstick thing going on. i didn't look half bad either. while i was talking with jen and harm, damien came!!! the first of the only two males. - i actually invited a lot of people, but i think more than 3 quarter didn't come - the party was already starting. so when anis, nawwal and zahrul came, the part was on full swing. but what really grabbed my attention was jane. she looked utterly gorgeous. she cut her hair in a pixie kinda cut. but her hair really made her look older. with the short dress she was wearing, jane was the main attraction of the day. when anis came, she wanted to do the decorations that i completely ignored. i said there was no fucking reason for me to mess my house. but she said she cared. so i just gave her the fuckin' papers and she did what ever she wanted to. but when she was hanging all the papers on the wall, she stood on this one chair which is meant for kids from the age of 2-7. not 16. so, obviously the chair broke. when i told her no need to continue because i don't fucking care about the house and it'll just take me time to clean it later on. she scolded me! she said i didn't care about her and all i care about is the house. well, i was thinking if she continued to do all those deco, she'll just fall gain. then only she stopped. it kinda stopped the party for a while. but harm and indie started to pose seductively. we all made them do weird poses and took the pictures. then mellie came in and harm left the picture. with mellie, mellie was the maid and indie is the master. that picture was damn nice. we continued to play twister and mellie and indie got kinda tied up. but when jenny came in the picture, jenny got even worse. her hands and legs were all over the place. the party was blast. thanks all for coming!!

flly fm back to school!!

2009-07-26T02:06:00.000-07:00

guys!! on the 22nd of july, i gott a phon call from jules - fly fm announcer - i submitted my entry for that program like a month ago, so i thought i didn't get in when she didn't reply. so when she called me up, i was so fucking shocked. especially when she said i was chosen, i was like 'OMG!! Seriously? omg!! i can't believe it.' jules was laughing at me. so yesterday, i went to tropicana city mall hoping to win. i went early, went to a sushi shop with the whole rush hour team. we were having so much fun. but unfortunately jules didn't have enough tutors so some of us had to repeat. i was repeated. i got 1 history question, 1 english and 2 maths questions. i got 1 wrong maths question but it's a hard question. BUT..... Jules won!!! it was a chaos. it was so fun. jules and prem wants to bring all the tutors to watch a movie. i can't wait to go out with them!!!

life sucks and you know it

2009-07-04T05:56:00.000-07:00

things are getting so freaky nowadays. it's like i'm living in another dimension. i've been sick for the past few days. staying at home is very boring. there's nothing that i can do just to entertain myself. now, me and anis are thinking of just losing the cooking comp. i juz suddenly got a plan that if we lose the comp after the 35 groups cook off, we can go back home quicker. so instead of going home, we could go and have some fun at sunway. we were thinkin of watching harry potter. but i dun noe. plz gimme ideas....

new update!!!!!

2009-06-27T22:15:00.000-07:00

it's been way long since i last updated. may i guess... nuff bout that. yesterday i went to the taylors college culinary challenge... it was friggin awesome. i can't wait for the real competition... btw, next to my counter at the college, there's two guys from sri saujana. they were HOT... well, the chinese-malay looked cute and sweet while the other was not bad. before going to the college, my mom dropped my off at school. i've been avoiding my mom because i didn't want to tell her bout the open day. so, when i went there, i faked in a very innocent tone 'what's going on in school today?' then my mom said 'today's YOUR open day, can't you remember..." busted... when i was going out of the car,my mom asked me, want to take your report card or not? what can possibly be my answer? hell no!! with the very humiliating add maths marks, there is no fucking way i want my parents to know about my marks... i got 3 for add maths for gods sake. well, i still haven't told them anything yet.. btw, yuuko, lift ure head up high. ignore a possible threats. a quote i got from a book. love u girl!!!

damn damn damn!

2009-05-16T03:36:00.000-07:00

i think i'm gonna fail my mid year exams. add maths sucks! i felt like i wanna commit suicide right after the teacher collected my paper. but i'm trying to balance myself with study and enjoying myself. so now i'm between studying and watching american idol marathon and browsing the net. i'm now currently addicted to green day's latest song called know your enemy and fifteen by taylor swift. i really like taylor. all her songs had a place in my heart. i sound corny, i know. i'm sad though that she broke up with joe jonas through a 27 second phone call. they would've looked so good together... and i know this is a last season news. i'm now hoping that adam would win AI this season. but i'm scared it will be a repeat. it's like everything i like - david archuleta, chelsea - always lose at second place. do you know that i used to call archie david archuela? it was the first time i heard him and i didn't quite hear what ryan said his name was... well, now i need to study... go go chayo!

hmm... no idea...

2009-04-23T00:37:00.000-07:00

hmmm. it's been nearly a month since i posted a blog. to say that i don't have the time, it's just bullshit. i spend hour a day on the internet. just not on blogger. lets see, what can i update here... oh yeah, watched F1 on the 4 and the 5 of april and it was amazing. on sunday, i went earlier than my dad to catch hamilton. but after a 1 1/2 hour of waiting, they said he couldn't make it. what the fishsticks?! but i also found out a few days later that archie was supposed to come to my school for hitz bring archie to your school. but, the teachers said no 'cause of some stupid visitor that's coming to the school. frustrating ain't it? well, in AI, adam lambert is hands down the best of the season. can't wait to see him win. but i'm scared it will happen like what happen with archie last year!

earth hour

2009-03-28T06:25:00.000-07:00

come on people!!!support earth hour! just turn of your lights for only one hour on 28 march 2009 from 8.30pm to 9.30 pm for only one night. malaysia's earth hour just ended a few minutes ago. i'm calling out to all the people all over the world here! if you want to die early, go ahead. but i want a longer life!

Hope that it's all right

2009-03-26T04:17:00.000-07:00

It was different at school this week. Azie was all sad cause syahiran moved to a boarding school at penang. She was crying on monday. I wouldn't blame her. I stayed in my room crying n waiting for my knight to come online. But this week is also very boring. There had this anugerah cemerlang thingi. It took the whole day n tomorrow. So i'm going 2 be extra prepared for watever dat comes. It's been quite a while since my knight call. I miss him!

life sucks, the holidays suck, what else can suck??

2009-03-16T20:04:00.000-07:00

there is nothing that i can do during the school holiday. the tuition sucks like hell. yesterday was the start of the exams at the freakin tuition. i was supposed to have the tuition for 4 days. but, i finished 3 exams yesterday so i only have 2 more today. so today will be my last day. tomorrow i'm going to sunway with anis. i tend to go earlier to buy things that i want to buy that she cancelled like stuff from hello planet, baskin robins, books, shushi and so much more. she should be grateful that i'm buying her lunch, and her tickets. but nooooo, she said she's saving my money for mei. she wants me to follow her watch terminator salvation. i already promised wei wern to follow her and my brother's birthday is on that day. well, i need to spend money for the book fest next month, so i don't think i'm going to go out in may.

god knows how bored i am

2009-03-14T02:28:00.000-07:00

looks like the school holiday just started... but it's also means that my tuition exams are coming in 3 days. how more stupid can that tuitio n teacher be. having exams during the school hols? not only that, they decided to make it a four hour tuition daily during the hols. i am not getting my freedom this hols. i'm trying to tell my mom that i want to change my tuition. i'm studying with the form 5. so, it means that i am studying damn fuckin freakin fast. i am 1 chapter faster compared to school. the fuckin teacher is also the same. it's the same phy teacher, bio and mod maths. can i have anymore things to coop with? but my mom said nooooo.... because our neighbour said that they send their kids to a tution here, and there was no improvement. so she thinks that leasrning so freakin fast will make an improvement? i think i'll have thewhole sylabus done by 3 months. then i'm sudying form 5 bio, phy, chem, mod maths and add maths. yay! ya right. so, going out with anis on wed. screw tuition. i promised anis to go out with here before january!

fishstick yourself cause no one else will

2009-03-11T07:38:00.000-07:00

well, my day really sucks. it was really boring at school. there was nothing to do. i already wore my pj clothes. but i purposely change it back because i don't want to do my sukantara. it was 100 metres and lontar peluru. if it was only the lontar peluru, i would be glad to do it. but there was running. and i HATE running. i repeat HATE as in H.A.T.E. i love to watch sports such as F1, football, tennis, squash, badminton, swimming and basketball. but i hate playing it. actually not hate, just strong dislike. but i would love to drive the F1 car anytime. but, i have no chance at all. my exams sucks. all my results are all barely passing. 40 plus all the way... sigh

tuition sucks

2009-03-11T00:18:00.000-07:00

actually, it doesn't suck that much. just that there's no malay or chinese in that class. it's indian. even the teacher is indian. but, what to do. i'm so scared for all my results. turns out that i failed my mod maths. wei wer also failed. and she was crying so badly during recess. she said that if she fail, her mom will start comparing her with jia li or kar yin. that's really bad cause jia li got 100 in mod maths. now, i really am hating form 4. can the questions get any harder?? dammit!!

sigh

2009-03-10T00:45:00.000-07:00

school today was boring. i mean BORING... i had nothing to do. i was glad that all the exam results didn't come out yet. bryan said that my modern maths was only 35. gasp. i know, i didn't pass. i told you i was going to fail didn't i? today is also the first day of tuition. its from 6pm to 8pm. i'm actually very lucky. i get to watch american idol and heroes and knight rider because my classes are only on monday, tuesday and friday. all the shows that i wanted to watch is on wednesday and thursday. yay! well, after 3 months of school, today was the first day pn evelyn asked for MY help. finally. well, need to revise for tuition. bubye

second day

2009-03-09T04:09:00.000-07:00

it's the so called second new day of my fresh start. i nwas almost buying a new bike just now. but i didn't. cuz it was quite expensive. but one really caught my interest. it was black. glossy black. damn nice. but i didn't want to buy it straight away. i need to see my other choices first. if not, i'll regregt buying it. like always. i'm starting my tuition tomorrow. tomorrow is physics and bio. i really need the class. i don't think i did a great job in my march test. but it wasn't my fault. the teachers told us to read the wrong things. but what to do... what done is done... well, i'm actually bored to death. it's a good thing school reopens tomorrow. at least i have something to do. well, need to log of. my fatso bro is reading what i'm writing... shut down

a fresh new start

2009-03-08T07:56:00.000-07:00

i just started this blog. actually, i restarted my blog. i forgot the password for my old account. so here i am. a fresh new start. okay, lets start. my real name is azni harieza. but you all can call me azi. i'm 16 this year. i have my own knight in shinning armour but i don't think i'll tell here. hee's mine. all mine. i live in malaysia but my knight lives all the way in london. i know... huge distance right. it's a distance that i can't just get on a plane and go to london in one night. what next?? oh yeah... my friends. they are all (well, not all but most of it) are chinese. i'm not even one. i'n a malay but i mix well with chinese. my knight says it's appropriate because it's even better to have frinds from all type of races. thanks to him, i now have a lot of friends from london. well, i really have to stop talking about my knight. few dayys ago - actually right now too - i was watching a korean drama that i bought the whole night and not sleep in the day. it's actually quite nice and refreshing. well, that's all i can say for now. bubye...